Ok, let's be honest with one another. I haven't been "vegan" for quite some time, taking my vegan time-outs as I saw fit, and it just makes me feel really icky to have a label like that lurking over my head when I know I don't completely ascribe to it. It pretty much makes me feel like a trendy asshat, and I'm not down. So, I am no longer a vegan, or on a vegan diet. Much of what I eat will be vegan, as it is now, but I'm not going to let myself feel bad for eating eggs, honey or dairy from ethically-sourced, local providers. Hell, I'm probably not going to let myself feel bad for eating those things from non-local providers, where the best I can hope for is that it's organic.
A couple of my reasons:
1. I stopped eating dairy and eggs because I couldn't control myself as a vegetarian with them as options. My previous vegetarian diet looked a little like this: cereal, ice cream, cheese pizza, mashed potatoes, macaroni and cheese, etc. Basically, the pinnacle of unhealthy eating. I'm past that now. I love how healthily I eat, and I don't really want to change that, so I feel confident in my ability to add those things back into my diet without losing control. If I can't manage, I'll return to eliminating them completely. I've always really struggled to be in the middle, and it's a real marker of health (mental, more than anything) to be able to actually live in moderation. So, I'm trying it.
2. I've been thinking more and more about a comment Erin made a bit ago about all the processed vegan foods. At this point, I'm really concerned with things being healthy over them being non-animal products. I would much rather have a bit of sour cream or buttermilk than the list of chemicals that are clogging up the backside of my Tofutti Sour Supreme. And to be honest, I prefer cashew cream to all of them. Basically, I want my food to be real, and I have found a lot of vegan options/substitutions that I really love that fit that requirement, but a lot are just globs of chemicals and I'm not okay with that anymore.
So, we'll see what happens. I certainly can't tear into a hunk of flesh, especially not any meat that comes from the hugely disgusting factory farming industry. I'm not ok w/ meat in general, but I actually really like the idea of humans and animals living symbiotically in good relationships with one another, and there are a lot of farms around here where that's happening.
Today I did a nice jog to campus and walk back, which is just under 2 miles. The weather was so blissfully perfect I couldn't help but get outside. It's supposed to be rainy tomorrow, but back to good for the weekend. The weather does wonderful things for my attitude toward everything, including exercise.
I've been looking at a lot of body-building blogs lately (I don't really know why) and feel like I'd really like to start doing more strength workouts. I have P90X and The Bar Method, so I should try and do one of those a few days a week along with my cardio.
I'm out of Dave's. I ate the two butt pieces (is that what you call the ends?) w/ avocado, salt, pepper and grape tomatoes for breakfast. I don't really know how I'm going to survive w/o it, as I'm not making a Costco trip for another week. I suppose it's onto oatmeal or tofu scramble.