It's not that I don't like it...

Blogging, that is, but rather that things have become rather monotonous and boring 'round these parts the last few days. Eating nothing but leftovers, not really leaving the house...basically, I'm bored by my life, which means writing about it is boring, which means bored readers. Delightful, no? Maybe it's a day of Evie just yelling (she doesn't cry, she yells, loudly), of being banana-barfed on, of no natural light, a messy house and not doing anything but lay around that has me feeling so gross, but I just feel like I'm in the doldrums. Thank God there is only one week (and a couple of days, but they don't count) left in January.

Bird warned me of this, that I might get worn out, that I would lose momentum. I'm trying really hard to not do that, but when I face my pile of cookbooks and know that next week's workouts have five-minute intervals I just want to give up, throw in the towel and be done. I won't, of course, because I know that what I'm doing has lead to me feeling better than I've ever felt, like ever, but you know, sometimes you just have to bitch and moan.

Tomorrow is a weigh-in. It is also my first day of taking measurements since starting this. I really, really hope that I have some good numbers to keep me going. I need an extra kick in the butt right now, motivation-wise. I know clothes are definitely fitting better, which helps, but seeing the actual numbers move down would be a huge boost to my confidence right now. Man. Wouldn't it be grand if I were just PMS'ing? My hormones are all jammed up right now which isn't helping a damn thing...

I'm thinking of doing one of those "30 days" prompts, just to give myself something else to think about besides what I'm eating and how many calories it has, and how long I have to be on the treadmill (I also need to start cross-training so I don't lose my ever-loving mind). Yup. Too eff-bomb lazy/tired/unmotivated to think of topics myself. Stealing them from the internets. Don't even care enough to reference them, because where ever I stole them from stole from somewhere else too. Bless you, Google. Maybe you'll want to as well, so, here goes the topics list:

Day 1: Something you dislike about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like {poo}.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

1 comment:

  1. I never knew such a thing as "30 Day Prompts" existed! Sounds interesting.