"Something you dislike about yourself"
Uh-oh. With today's rotten attitude, this has the potential to go downhill, quickly. Rather than dwell on a bazillion things that I could go off on for days and days, I'm gonna just say that I don't like my negative attitude.
I really don't. I think that somehow, in the past 7 or 8 years, I've cultivated this persona that is just a royal bitch, and that's really not who I am. Unfortunately, it's now something that I rely on a little too heavily, and so it makes it more difficult to cultivate new relationships, because I think people automatically assume that I'm mean. I think part of it, too, comes from that old cliche of not being a bitch, but being shy. I'm not necessarily shy, but I feel really awkward having conversations with people I'm not really close to. I do great if there are other people to riff off of, but if I have to go it alone, I don't know what to say, or assume the other person wouldn't want me bothering them, so I just don't say anything, which comes off as bitchy.
Granted, I am a hater (something I do really dislike about myself) and I suppose a lot of that justifies the perception that I'm mean, but I've really tried to cut down my hating for things and people that really deserve it. I've tried to become more patient with people who have different likes and ideals and realize that I'm not always right (it is hard). But that's something that goes on internally, so it's hard to show people that I'm trying, or that I'm changing. It's not like you can broadcast it. No one believes a facebook update that says, "hey everyone, i'm not a bitch anymore." That would make things too easy.
I guess it can only come down to my individual relationships with people, I can stop dwelling in the negative and start emphasizing the good things in life. If you have any hints on how to be whatever the opposite of a bitch is, please, let me know!