I don't think I'm a stupid person. In fact, it's one thing I can always be pretty certain of, that I'm smart, that I get things. However, when I miss things I really miss them. For example, last night when I was reading the latest Krakauer book I realized that my entire life I thought the Washington Redskins were from Washington state. I was certain of it; then I realized how off I was (just the other side of the country). I don't care about football or sports, but it was so representative of how I view the world. I am so certain about the things I think I know it's rare that I take a different perspective or even entertain the thought that I don't have the full story.
I suppose that's a rather convoluted way of getting to my point: today I realized just how awesome vegetables are. After going to bed rather hungry last night I knew I needed to make some changes if I were going to keep this up. As I looked for the most bang for my caloric buck I realized that I can eat sooooo many veggies before it ever becomes a caloric problem. Fill up on veggies and there's room for deliciousness, too!
A big part of this is the fact that I've never counted calories before. I've counted carbs, but now that I'm starting to realize the very simple math of weight loss (take in fewer calories than you need = weight loss!) I understand why eating vegetables works so well in losing weight. It makes me a little sad that it took me so long to understand this. I'm smart, right, so why didn't I understand?
I'm a little bit obsessed with my iphone app. I plug in exactly what I eat (most of the foods are already on file so it automatically populates the nutritional information) and then gives me a balance. It's like banking for my booty. For instance, I've hit my caloric cap today, but I think I'd like a little treat later on, so I need to do some exercise. Such a basic concept that alludes so many of us.
I also really love the whole food diary thing, especially when I take pictures. I feel so much more accountable for the food choices that I make.
Dinner was so good (mostly because I didn't make it). Ashley made a delicious sweet-potato, black bean chili. I topped mine with a little Sour Supreme and avocado and cilantro. I think the beans will have me going for the rest of the night (not farting/pooping, just you know, energy).
I've had about 1335 calories today, right on target!
I'm feeling really proud of myself for doing this. I haven't ever felt this committed to the weight loss process before, so I'm hoping that's a good sign.